
                         Roanoke Times
                 Copyright (c) 1995, Landmark Communications, Inc.

DATE: SATURDAY, August 5, 1995                   TAG: 9508070046
SECTION: VIRGINIA                    PAGE: A2   EDITION: METRO 
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`THE FACT IS I KILLED FIVE PEOPLE ...'

Excerpts from a six-page, handwritten letter from Robert May to his stepbrother, Jan. 9:

I too, think about the old days and wish we all could go back to being kids again and do it all over again but the reality is we can't.

Obviously what you've heard is true. I've killed five people three of them fdeserved and the other two weigh heavy on my soul but like anything else you learn to deal with it.

\ Its too late for "if only?" The fact is I killed five people and will probably get the chair and if not I know I'll never be free again, but I'm not worried about what any man on this world can do to me, only when I die and stand tall before the Man.

\ I've really got nothing left to lose. ... I'm sure I won't be the only one there [in prison] in those shoes, but I'll deal with that when the time comes. ... I just know if I can live with killing five I can live with killing more, hopefully that won't happen for their sake.

\ As for money bro, I'm set! ... By the time I write my book I'll be set for life. ... I've got every reporter from T.V. and newspaper around hounding me for an interview so when my attornies give me the green light it will go to the highest bidder. Hell I'm waiting for Geraldo and ol fat a-- Oprah to be getting in touch sooner or later. Maybe I'm full of s--- but Americans love to cash in on death and I'm willing to take their money.

\ All I really know for now is that I want to continue getting in touch with God. I was religious on the street, so don't think I'm playing some role now.

\ It's hard picturing myself as an old man in the Pen, but unless somebody kills me that's how it will be cause if suicide wasn't the only unforgiven sin I'd be swinging right now actually I put the gun to my head afterward and pulled the trigger obviously it was empty. ... And I know it sounds fup but for once I'm content before this happened I'd always been angry with the world poff about this and that but all the s--- I thought was so important just doesn't matter anymore. I've found this inner calm feeling even with all I'm facing. I know that I'll be all right.

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